Come on, bloody white,
hurt me, break me, let me cry

Go on, crimson Miss
Show me pain so I'll know bliss

-*-

Come on, my execution
And make me fear the dissolution

Go on, black dressed wife
Show me death so I'll know life

-*-

Come on, godblessed creature
Give odium as bonus feature

Even more, my star above
Show me hate so I'll know love


[(c) Ari Feremis]

Got tagged by : °~_~

1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.


Here we go

1- Hell, freaky, I'm a freakin' freaky Final Fantasy 7-Freak! X_x
2- F*ck, I really hate f*ck f*cking f*ckable things like this f*ck about f*cktagging other f*cking people!
3- I'm a Genesis Cosplayer
4- I'm pride
5- I can talk the way Genesis does and at the next second I can sound like Rosso the Crimson and just a second later I can be such a cutie! *_* You'll never will be able to look behind the scenes!
6- WUHAHAHAHA <- I just had to say this
7- I love my little guinea pigs
8- I'M IMMORTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAL

so f*ck of, I'm f*cking gonna f*ck tagg these f... friendly persons ^^

One sentence in my head,
keeps me going on:

"Sei du selbst
und lass nicht dein Glück an dir vorüberziehen."

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Just If my happiness may be your fortune
Why should I leave?

I don't have to wait to take a deeper look,
cause no matter what's also behind the scenes,
my heart has already decided.

But my conscience is what still has to,
cause it just can be contented,
when it comes from you, that
my happiness is YOUR happiness.

And if my happiness is yours
Just if...

Your words will be my armor,
impenetrable for every enemy;
Your nearness my fortitude,
that will let me protect you;
Your love may be my elation;
I'll fight for all my life.

So if my happiness may be your fortune
Why should I leave?

~ G ~

I got my pride back!!!

Yo you know that sort of person who may tell all day long they dislike thing but at the same time they do them on their own?
the tell, they would like if you would be candid. But if you are they only take your action as somethin' negative.

they say, they like bravery n if you are, they're hating you faster than you can say "three switched witches watch three swatch switches." xD

They say, they dislike superficiality and at the same time they are having prejudices on mass!

They r living in a lie.
They WANT to.

Now what? I've learned a lesson. Let those stubborn people be. They will never wake up if you try to help n are honest. Never! It doesn't matter, what you do, everything's wrong in their eyes.
And after you hide your wishes to help 'em again they sai they would know you much better than you can imagine O.O any stupid brat tells them bullshit n they really DO believe they would know EVERYthing 'bout ya. xDDD

I've got better things to do ^^
I've got my pride, my dreams.
And if she wants to live in that lie a little kid tells her, I'll let her, if she's happy with it. ;D

I know I did nothing wrong. I can smile again. I can leave it. Could she ever if she was honest to herself? Guess no.

xPPP

Almost everything goes wrong.
I'm dreaming all day long n sometimes I feel like every action falls into no place.
Everything was easier before I told someone special my unfitting feelings, but I cannot turn back time, huh? For a few days I though 'If I just cut connection, she wouldn't even notce it. She will be happier without me, everything will get fixed.' But I remembered a time BEFORE she noticed my feelings. I gave her some inspiration 'n she was glad, I think. If only I could turn back to where I was then. I even know, even If I wasn't in love with her I would wish to be a good friend to her. N finally this is what I'm trying to reach - a level to be as interessting as I need to become, to be a good friend.

Listen, you know, Im talking about you, huh? If you read this (Hey, it may be possible!), just lemme say... I'm really sorry for my stupid actions the last few days... weeks... I know I've been annoying, just like a stupid depressed brat, but this isn't the way I normaly act.
I'm working on it, promise. I hope you know, I'm sorry n I hope I can have another chance. I couldn't give up that easy cuZ... ah... you know why... >.<
I'm trying my best. I swear.

And for all the others who were worried or may still be:
I'm dreaming... My dream is to have a place I can call home, 'cuZ i never had. This dream gives me strength. I thought I may never get a dream, realistic enough n even that beatiful, so I was dreaming of having a dream again. N now I found it. I will make it come true as fast as I can, I cannot wait for that day. N with that home-feeling I will get new dreams, I guess. So it will go on. I'm sure.

~ G ~ / Ari